I just want to stay home. I want to be there for my little ones anytime they need a hug, to snuggle, to cry, to show me the most beautiful picture they just drew. I want to be there. I want to be there for my older kiddos, for meal time chats, for midday walks, to tuck them in before they are too old to be tucked in anymore! I won't even mind if sometimes they take me for granted for always being there. I want to spend the day up to my elbows in dishes and up to my knees in laundry. I want to have the chance to do it again- to be the stay at home mom I was- only better. I want to help, encourage and support my dear husband in his goals and dreams. I want cook the meals with my daughters. I want to color with my little ones. I want to play board games (maybe even computer games?!) with my 13 year old. Yes I know I can squeeze the time in to do those things now, but it is not the same as staying at home and doing them, its just not.
I am not complaining, I am not looking down at other moms who work happily outside of the home. I just wanted to share my hearts desires because this is me, it is what I think about and dream about all the time.
